Do you believe that some opportunities come only once in a lifetime?  Opportunities that will never, ever cross your path again?  Many times I have pondered upon the many opportunities that I have come across in life, opportunities that were only meant to come once and only once, opportunities which I have regretted not taking hold of and seizing the moment in time.

I have many regrets in life.  Regret letting opportunities pass me by are one of them.  Regret believing in false promises, masked lies and snakey words is another.  Sometimes I get so angry and disappointed with my ownself for making these stupid mistakes.  How would my life be if I had seized that moment in time, and taken hold of that golden opportunity that would probably be my ultimate chance in a lifetime?  How would it have been if I had taken the other road?  Sometimes I wonder.  Would I have been happier and more successful than now?  Probably.

A long time ago, I've had to choose between 2 roads.  The first was one that was long and winding, mostly uphill, one with many decisions to make in between, but was full of wise people and wise advice, one that was uncertain yet hopeful.  The second was one that seemed to be the easier path, wide, full of promises and even more promises, sweet words, shortcuts.  I chose the latter.  Eventually these promises and sweet words turned into lies, lies and only lies.  Empty promises, snakey lies, pure deception.  I had chosen the road to destruction and indeed I have.

They say the grass is always greener on the other side.  How would we know if we've never been to the other side, let alone seen it?  We wouldn't, unless we try it ourselves.  Yet sometimes, once we've chosen the other road, we can never turn back and choose another.  While God may allow U-turns, life most often does not.

I can never go back to the first road no matter how much I have regretted my decision or how much I have learned from the mistakes that I have made.  Of all the mistakes in life I have made, this is the worst, most severe and has cost me all my tears, anger and frustration.  Sometimes I am angry at myself for letting myself be deceived by all those slinky lies and twisted promises, for letting myself be illusioned by what is not true.  Sometimes I am angry, angry at all these serpents for twisting their words and luring me into embarking on this venomous journey which had cost me a lost portion of my life.

A wise person once told me this: "Be wary of these people, for they are clever at twisting their words and trapping you in their deception.  I know because I have dealt with many of them in my life."

I chose to ignore his advice.  But I knew deep down inside that he was right all along.

I am angry that I have let myself be cheated, pushed around like a pawn, and deceived.  I am enraged that some people can actually live a life full of deception and twisted tales they spin to trap others into the benefit of their own gain.  I am angry, but there is little I can do.  Vengeance is God's, indeed.

Once a road has been taken and there is no turning back, then there is little that can be done to go back to the past life and live it again.  There is nothing I can do, but to fix it, learn, and move on with my life.  I may not have so much luxury as to chance upon another golden opportunity as the first road again in life, but all I can do is make sure I don't make the same mistake as I did again when opportunity does come knocking.

All I want is to start afresh, leave all these lies and deception behind me, put a full stop to this chapter and turn the page.  I want to begin on a fresh new sheet of paper, with a fresh bottle of ink and a fresh new story to tell.  I want to go far, far away, start anew on my next journey and put all these unhappy events where they belong - in a chest of "Unhappy Events" all locked up and the key flung out into the bottom of the sea.

I'm washing my hands clean, never looking back again.